Posts Tagged ‘Peter’

A Need For Peter To Walk On Water

30 Mar




Date: Mon, 30 Mar 1998 06:06:26

Well, Gabriel I can understand your agony. May be I haven't seen the world as much as you did, but I can assure you that I am matured enough to understand what you are saying. I was 350Km away from my home town for a period of 4 years when I was doing my Engineering. I had to face the world myself and I learned many things then. There is a thin layer between the words 'Religious' and 'Fanatic'. I can understand that some are being led by the satan and still can not realize this. It is really a pitty. Often times people don't see the layer in which they are. I could not understand what you meant by God's government.

I will tell you one story which is often told in our churches. Once a so-called pious took the Bible to know what God wants him to do. He closed his eyes and opened the book at random. His looks fell on one verse which said "And judas hanged himself". This man was shocked and thought maybe god was kidding. Again he opened the bible and found this verse "Even you do the same". This time he was mad to see this verse. Finally, he wanted to make last attempt. When he made, the final verse that came was "this is my will said the Lord". The story ends here. You see, this is how some find the will of God. But this is going to destroy them for ever.
A true incident happened in south korea a few years back. Let me share this with you.

Two christians sisters wanted to attend a gospel meeting in a nearby village. So they started out on a rainy day. The rain became heavy and the water inundated the low lying area which they have to cross. The sisters remembered how peter walked on waters and they wanted to do the same. Of course, with faith, they had. But, the story ended sadly when their bodies were found next day. What was wrong with these sisters? They had the faith no doubt, but they lacked the descernig power. There was a need for peter to walk on water and God was willing to this, then. Where as here, they had just mental knowledge of the god and nothing else. They could not find the will of God even though they thought they had found. I agree that Christ is the only way, but you can be deceived very easily in the name of christ.

The Bible says in 1peter 5:8 "Be vigilent, be sober because your adversary walketh about, seeking whom he may devour." He is mostly after the beleiver. If we are not alert then he is going to devour us first.

Allen should also think about his family. It should be his entire family that should decide what to do. When GOD said "a man shall leave his parents and will be united with his wife and they shall be one", how can he say to a man to give a deaf ear to his wife and family. One thing I could not understand is, Is GOD calling Allen for ministry?. One can also serve GOD while doing a job as NEHEMIAH, DANIEL and EZRA did in bible.

Do you remember the story of JOSEPH in the bible?. The bible says GOD blessed the country Egypt and other neighbouring countries because of JOSEPH. When ABRAHAM pleades GOD for the life of his nephew LOT, GOD says "I will not destroy that city if five RIGHTEOUS people are present". Don't these verses show that GOD not only blesses his children but also the surroundings and the country in which they live in. Although the names I mentioned, which I said was the reason for the prosperity of America, may or may not be true but still there are many in your country who are RIGHTEOUS whose names will only be revealed in HEAVEN.

Let me tell you frankly, although I believe in GOD very firmly still I use my mind most of the times. I always look at a believer with a eye of suspition. So I am not fanatic. Well Gabriel, I didn't mean to hurt your feeling if I did I am sorry. You were very emotional in your mail and it shows how much concerned you are towards your brother.

I am looking for a job right now. But here it is not easy to get a job even though I did my Engineering. There is a saying "Try and try and try at last you will succeed," isn't it? I got to have a patience as big as Everest.

I thought of reading a poem in your mail but, I couldn't. why? By the by can you send your photographs and of course your postal address, only if you don't mind. Ah! what about your health?. How are you feeling now? Don't forget to answer my mail with all details.

Bye for now, with love.

Scripture Bleed

13 May


Twelve Is A Lonely Number


Date: Tue May 13, 1997 6:29:29 PM

The following 12 passages have been selected from the 66 books of the Torah, the Prophets, and the Christian scriptures to represent me in all my complacency and horror at how difficult this book has been for me. The facts are that this book at face value is not so difficult to understand, not so difficult to believe that it is the greatest book ever written, or that somehow—despite every vulgar criticism and apotheosis leveled against it—that it is not a self-witnessing canon suggestive of the Word of God, of Yahweh, of the Almighty Creator, who hand-picked the sons of Abraham in all of their literal and spiritual formations as a chosen people from among other chosen people, but it is difficult to accept for this reason alone: that I have a walk-on part in this grand play, however distant from center stage or the radius point I may appear to be at any given moment, such as this one in drafting the twelve most arresting passages I have to extol or fortify myself when hope seems worthless and every activity appears vain to my own litigious mind.

12) Job 13: 1-3
Mine eyes have observed all these things. I have heard and my ears understood. What you know, I know that myself. I am no more a fool than are you. Now I will address the Most High, and to God I will turn with my plea . . .

11) II Peter 1:19-21
And we possess in this prophetic message a firm support, to which you would do well to pay attention as to a lamp shining in a gloomy place, until the day dawns, and the Morning Star arises in your hearts; recognizing in the first place, that no prophecy of Scripture is of a single meaning. For prophecy was never a result of human design; on the contrary, men spoke under the influence of a Holy Spirit sent from God.

10) Revelations 9:1-11
Then the fifth angel sounded; and I saw a star fall from the sky onto the land, and the key of the pit of the abyss was given to him. And he opened the pit of the abyss and smoke ascended from the pit like smoke from a great furnace; and the sun and the atmosphere were darkened from the smoke of the pit. And from the smoke there came locusts upon the land, and they were endowed with power resembling the power possessed by the scorpions of the earth. But they were commanded not to injure the herbage of the earth, nor any grass, nor any tree, but only those men who have not the mark of God upon their foreheads. And it was granted to them not to kill them, but so that they should be tormented for five months. And their torture was like that of a scorpion when it stings a man. During those days men will seek death and not find it; they shall long to die, and death will fly from them! Then the locust took the appearance of calvary disciplined for war, and on their heads were crowns like gold, and their faces resembled those of men. But they had hair like the hair of women, and their teeth were like those of lions. They also wore breastplates like breastplates of iron, and the sound of their wings was like the roar of chariots, and many horses charging in battle. They also have tails and stings like those of scorpions; and in their tails they possesses the power to torture mankind for five months. They had over them a king, the Angel of the Abyss. In Hebrew his name is Abaddon, and in Greek he has a name, Apollyon.

9) II Timothy 3:1-7
Know this, however, that in the last days there are impending terrible times. For men will be lovers of self, avaricious, empty, pretentious, libelous, disobedient to parents, ungrateful, senseless, without parental affections, implacable, calumniators, profligate, inhuman, without love of goodness, traitors, reckless, stupid, lovers of pleasure more than lovers of God; having an appearance of religion but denying its power. But turn away from these. Of such are those who creep into families, and capture weak women laden with sins, agitated by various passions, always learning, but never able to arrive at the recognition of truth.

8) Jeremiah 15: 15-22
Everliving, You know! Remember and visit me, and avenge me upon my persecutors! Repel me not in Your anger! Support me! You know I am reproached on account of You. I found your words and devoured them, and your words were sweet and pleasant to my heart, for your NAME was fixed upon me--EVERLIVING GOD OF HOSTS! I have not sat in the company of the joyous; but felt pleasure at Your side. I sat solitary because You filled me with indignation. Why is my misery perpetual? And my wound incurable? Refusing to be healed? Why are You like failing, unstable waters? Then the Lord replied, "If you will return, then I will restore you to stand before Me. And if you sort out the worthless from the valuable, you shall be like My mouth; they will come to you and you need not go to them. I will also make for you a wall of brass as a defense against this People--they may fight against you--but they shall not overpower you, for I will be there to save and deliver you," said the EVERLIVING. "I will also deliver you from the hand of the wicked, and redeem you from the hand of the terrible."

8) Jeremiah 16: 16-18
"I will send many fishermen, " says the Everliving, "who will fish for them, and after them I will send many hunters, who will hunt them upon every hill, and upon every mount and cliff, and crag, for My eyes are all over their courses--they are not hidden from Me--and their faults are not concealed from My sight. But I will first repay their faults and their sins upon them double, because they have polluted My land with their filthy carcasses, and filled My inheritance with their abominations.

8) Jeremiah 17: 9-10, 23: 9-11
The heart is more false than all things, and who among men knows his own? I, the Lord, search the heart and try thoughts, and fix for each person his path . . .

My heart is broken in my breast for the Preachers—all my bones shake—I have become like a giant overcome by wine, before the EVERLASTING, and before His holy words! For the land is full of imposters—the land faints before this curse—the pastures of the plains fail, for their courses are bad, and their energies worthless! The Preacher and the Priest alike are profane.

7) Zachariah 13: 1-6
At that time a fountain will be opened for the House of David, and for the people of Jerusalem, for sin and uncleanness. And then says the LORD OF HOSTS, "I will destroy the names of their idols from the country, and they shall no longer be remembered; and I will remove their Preachers, and their foul spirit from the country. And then when a person preaches, his father and his mother who bore him will say, 'You shall not live. For you utter lies in the name of the EVERLIVING!' And his father, and the mother who bore him will stab him, when he attempts to preach! And at that time the Preachers will be ashamed, every one, of his visions when he preaches, and will not wear mantles of hair for the sake of deception, but will say, 'I am not a Prophet. I am a man who cultivates the ground. For I have been a working man from my youth!' And if he is asked, 'What are those tattooes then upon your hands? 'he will reply, 'I was marked with them in the house of my friend!"

6) Luke 15:1-7
And all the tax-farmers and the sinners were drawing near to listen to Him, but the Pharisees and professors were grumbling loudly, saying, "This fellow admits sinners, and eats with them." He accordingly addressed this parable to them: "What man among you, possessing a hundred sheep, and losing one of them, would not leave the ninety-nine in the pasture, and go in search of the lost one until he has found it? And having found it, he places it with delight upon his own shoulders, and arriving at home, he calls upon his friends and neighbors to share his joy, saying, "Rejoioce with me, for I have found my lost sheep!" In the same way I tell you there will be more gladness in heaven over a converted sinner than over ninety-nine righteous persons who have no need of conversion."

5) I John 4: 16-20
God is LOVE, and whoever continues in love, dwells in God, and God in him. His love with us will be perfected when we have free access in the Day of Judgment; because as He Himself is, we also shall be, in that world. There is no fear in love. But perfect love expels fear, because fear is torture; and whoever is in fear has not reached the perfection of love. We love, because He first loved us. If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar; because whoever does not love his brother whom he has seen, cannot love God Whom he has not seen.

4) Mark 13: 21-27
Then, if any one should say to you, 'Look, the Messiah is here!' or 'There he is!' believe it not, for false messiahs and false prophets shall make their appearance, and shall give out signs and great wonders, to lead astray, if it were possible, even the elect. But you, be on your guard, because I have foretold you all.

3) Revelation 2: 2-6
I know your position, your industry, and your patience, and that you cannot endure those who are wicked; that you have put to the test those who have called themselves apostles, and are not, and have found them false, and you have had patience and have suffered because of My Name, and have not failed. I have, however a charge against you—that you have forsaken your first love! Remember therefore, from where you have fallen, and repent, and practice your former works; failing which, and unless you alter your mind, I will come and remove your lampstand from its place. You have this to your account, however, that you hate the practices of the corrupters of the people, which I Myself also hate.

2) Revelation 11:1-13
Then he handed to me a reed like a measuring-rod, saying, "Rise up, and measure the sanctuary of God, and the altar, and those worshipping in it; but omit the outer court of the sanctuary, and measure it not because it has been given to the nations, and they shall frequent the holy city forty-two months. And I shall give to them My two witnesses, who shall preach for a period of one thousand two hundred and sixty days, clothed in sackcloth. They are the two olives trees, and the two lamps placed in the sight of the Lord of the earth. And if anyone attempts to injure them, fire issues from their mouth, and will consume their enemies, and if anyone should wish to injure them, thus he must be killed. These possess the power to close up the sky, so that no rain may fall during the period of their preaching; they also have power over the waters to convert them into blood, and to scourge the earth with every plague as often as they may desire. But when they have finished their evidence, the monster coming up from the abyss shall wage war with them, and conquer them, and slay them. And their corpses shall be exposed upon the market place of the great city, which spiritually is named Sodom and Egypt, where also their Master was crucified. Then all persons from the races, and tribes, and languages, and nations, shall gaze upon their dead bodies for three days and a half, refusing to allow their corpses to be entombed. And the inhabitants of the earth will also exult over them and make merry, and they will send presents to one another, because these two prophets irritated the dwellers upon the earth. But after three days and a half, a Spirit of Life from God entered into them, and they stood upon their feet; then great horror fell upon those who watched them. They heard a loud voice from heaven calling to them, "Come up here!" So they ascended into the heaven into the cloud, and their enemies watched them. And at that very hour there was a mighty earthquake, and the tenth part of the city fell, and seven thousand persons were killed in the earthquake; when the rest became terrified they gave glory to the God of heaven.

1) Revelation 21: 1-2
Afterwards I saw a new sky and a new earth, because the former sky and the former earth had passed away; and the sea existed no longer.


Dollhouse Charms

13 Oct


The Dollhouse Grillyard


Originally published on October 13, 1996

Anecdotes on the grill, hip-hugging and pressure cooked people sprawled about the deck with all sorts of psychoses just a spoon feed away. All told, it seems everyone left with a pleasant evening under their belts after chortling on cheese dip, assorted dishes and the chow din of new acquaintences.

Bob and Peter had never met. Michelle was new goth bird. Allie announced she was moving in with Bob, saving $800 a month, helpful since she too is leaving Columbia Research for greener pastures, that is to say, her hunt for that illusive green card, saying that CR has a long record of hiring aliens but dropping the ball on green card sponsorship.

The gathering began late, which of course threw off my own psychological equilibrium for most of the early part of the day since I had hoped for an early start, early end, but things softened and turned to a generalized sense of fun once Peter and Michelle arrived sometime shortly after 1730hrs.

The afternoon heat chilled rather quickly, finally underpinning the autumnal ambience to the other seasonal changes visible in the sheets of orange-brown leaves blanketing the backyard matched by the brilliant, cascading angles of the fading sun.

Peter got a call this morning suggesting he’s still in queue for a job interview at, I think, one of the places he’s interned. That’s timely, since we mildly roasted Peter the last hour of last night’s gathering focussing on his need to find a job because neither he nor we are rolling in web business yet, and in order to really be worth his ambition in GSIS stock, he needs to improve his own skills and speed with practice, not on my time and dollar, but on his own.
Bob was cheerful all night long. He and Peter gloried in their common interest in comic books and Japanese animation. Allie unloaded her greencard woes in her horrible English tongue which is less a mumble than a slippery slur of half-formed syllables. But she too was cheery, even as the night pushed late into the mind, curled into her chair, snuggled into sweatshirt sleeves intent on listening to the banter of the boys. Michelle didn't talk much, not that she's shy or inarticulate, but with a full deck of notorious chatterers on board, she politely played it safe. She's a psychology major at Purdue, and was markedly endearing as she also curled in her chair, tilting her head in such a way as to communicate an adoration for Peter whenever he took to the common soapbox.

But she's no mere fawn. Peter had burned some bacon earlier that afternoon, and when Sue suggested the microwave was a saner choice for the chore, Peter of course started in with his own variation of Shipwreck rationale.

Michelle surnamed Carnes as in Kim no relation, immediately backed Sue as Peter mumbled off into that land of geez, can't I ever be right about something, even when pushing the I'm wrong about nothing spin cycle. Maybe not. Perhaps I'm being ever slightly unfair for the sake of a short line of bull. Admittedly, I wasn't there in the kitchen, although at one point I nearly bolted from my chair to race upstairs as my complaint-driven pathos peeled back the stench of newly formed carbon gathering in my ever sensitive nostrils, but Sue witnessed to me later, and I have no problem imagining that when she said he started explaining something about hot grease and the natural water in the bacon combining to blacken it, he was pulling a big time, uh, well you know what I mean. This a been a banner weekend. Had a swell time on the bay feasting with the three Spence dolls plus Pitch. I'm sure this topic has come up before but I forget your opinion on crabs. I would imagine Philly to be a great place for the critters, even while somewhat overshadowed by the world famous Philadelphia cheesesteak culture.

Peter got a call this morning suggesting he’s still in queue for a job interview at, I think, one of the places he’s interned. That’s timely, since we mildly roasted Peter the last hour of last night’s gathering focussing on his need to find a job because neither he nor we are rolling in web business yet...
Shorthand Kenny Sacks, sports fan primo, now in Seattle... I just timed out to ring him, but got the machine, formerly of Philly, still raves about how much he misses the Philly steak of his youth. His mom once had promised to ship him a crate of the whole steak-n-cheese enchilada, bread, meat, cheese from a local distributor just to ease his homesickness and taste bud deprivation after he moved out there a couple, well, maybe three years ago now. Don't know if that panned out, but it was a nice motherly gesture.

His mom is a dear, a small hairspray-blonde Jewish cabana queen who looks and talks like she just stepped out of a Seinfeld episode. She kept trying to feed us sweets from the fridge. One year our colleague in the online fantasy baseball league wimped out in getting our Phillies tickets. She bailed us out with her influence, calling the front office, seating us in the best seats we'd ever had over the four games Sue and I had shared with the Nuthouse Gang, right near home plate just a few rows up and a few seats down the first base line behind the net.

Peter and Michelle are gone for the day. They'll sup at his parent's house tonight, and she'll fly back to Indiana tomorrow afternoon. Peter got a call this morning suggesting he's still in queue for a job interview at, I think, one of the places he's interned. That's timely, since we mildly roasted Peter the last hour of last night's gathering focussing on his need to find a job because neither he nor we are rolling in web business yet, and in order to really be worth his ambition in GSIS stock, he needs to improve his own skills and speed with practice, not on my time and dollar, but on his own.

No feelings were unduly trampled, and I feel the exchange was blithely enlightening, as he admitted that he has often been chastised for a lack of speed and creativity in his work, and is hoping to improve on these fronts in time. I'm committed to helping him where and when I can, but he must certainly begin to pull his weight in some area, and for now that appears to be simply paying the agreed upon rent, and then working to improve his skills in areas that we both can exploit so that he indeed can become a healthy factor in the growth potential of Graphic Solutions Ink Systems and CYFII, his own company. In other words, we're each still operating in good faith.



"Ignorance and virtue suck on the same straw. Souls grow on bones, but die beneath bankers' hours.""